Blue crayons are prettier than brown ones; take care not to play with dolls that are darker than you are; long sleeved shirts are not only for wintertime; princesses look like sleeping beauty; don't use colors that remind people of filth; when playing dress-up with your friends, put white towels over your head and imagine that you're beautiful; don't wear colors that make your skin look darker than it already is; what makes you think brown is beautiful, eh?; starve yourself so that your thighs won't touch when you walk; in school, talk in such a way that you won't sound like the nigger that you are; don't wear your hair naturally; when you grow up, you must marry a white man so that your kids will be beautiful; stay away from boys who have hair like pot-foot;
but I don't like brown crayons anyway; this is how to relax your hair; this is how to improve your complexion; this is how to kill new growth when your relaxer starts to grow out so as to prevent yourself from looking like the nigger that I know you are so bent on becoming; this is how to grease your hair to make it look shiny; this is how to make friends; when you are in school, make sure that you don't associate with riff-raff--those niggers aren't going nowhere; this is how you use skin bleaching cream; this is how you talk proper; this is how you make friends with white kids; this is how not to look at the black kids who think that you'll talk to them just because you're black too; this is how you smile to a white boy that you like; this is how not to smile at a black boy that likes you; this is how you entertain white people; this is how you act around other black people; this is how you behave in the presence of important white people, and this way they won't think that you are the nigger that I have warned you against becoming; be sure to hot-comb your hair every day; don't move in with niggers--you're not one o' dem, ya know!; don't imagine yourself on the covers of the magazines that you see while standing in line to buy groceries; don't entertain nigger friends because others might mistaken you for one; this is how to make casserole instead of roti; this is how to wear pink lipstick instead of brown;
but I don't like brown anyway; this is how to use skin bleaching cream on a child [like your mother] that comes out too dark; this is how to love a white man, and if this doesn't work there are other ways, and if they don't work then feel bad about giving up;
but what if he doesn't want me?; you mean to say that after all, you are really going to be the kind of woman that a white man won't want?
3 comments:
nice post, manda :)
Amanda- found your post through my good friend Dorian.
I love this piece. Even now it leaves me speechless to comment. I love the honesty.
Thanks :) I'm glad you enjoyed it.
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