Alexithymia: '09 Resolutions

Meanderings...

After almost twenty years of trying to find my voice, I am once again confronted by a blank page. Ever since I can remember I have possessed a penchant for keeping my thoughts, emotions, and ideas about the world within the safe confines of my head where they remain unassailable, free from judgment, speculation, and ridicule. My big sister once observed that “one of the greatest struggles that arises from being a human being (besides living and loving) is loneliness. Loneliness does not always have to do with the number of people around; more profoundly, it comes from the connections one can (or cannot) make from one's experiences to the experiences of others.”

Some time ago however, I realized that I am not content just to be alive; rather I desire to live and to do so deliberately. And so, here I am, putting my thoughts, ideas, and experiences out there for the world to read that I might overcome alexithymia. In doing so, I hope to gain a clearer understanding of myself by sharing and partaking in the cathartic effects of language. –AB

Saturday, January 3, 2009

'09 Resolutions

1-Be more spontaneous
2-Take risks
3-Worry less. Trust God more.
4-Be more thoughtful
5-Learn to Latin dance (maybe take a class?)
6-Begin sketching again
7-Laugh more
8-Visit Sarah in Trinidad
9-Improve my vocabulary
10-Take myself less seriously
11-Go on an adventure
12-Watch the entire fourth season of House
13-Pay close attention to details
14-Become a better sibling/daughter/friend/person in general...
15-Stop biting my nails
16-Pick up a basketball more frequently
17-Be less self-critical
18-Continue spinning
19-Finish my memoir
20-Live